Anti-depressants can help.

Anti-depressants can help.

I’ve always had issues with antidepressants not working for me. I’ve been on so many now and the only thing they ever really did was make me tired and did nothing for my depression. After a really bad patch I went through recently I went to the doctors and asked for help. I straight away said I want nothing I’ve had before I want whatever I try to be a big dose so it actually helps me. There was only one thing I hadn’t tried which was fluoxetine.

I’ve been on them three weeks now and I’ve noticed a big difference. I’m not going to say it’s completely cured me but it is really helping me. I’m able to let go of bad thoughts. To rationalise with my self that I’m being anxious and think a lot more clearly. I don’t get so upset or hold on to things as long. My mood swings are less dramatic and I’m certainly feeling the black cloud leaving.

I’ve always been sceptical about whether they work or not but I feel now I’ve found the right one for me. They’re in no way a cure but if it can help me be a bit more rational in my thought process then it is so much more beneficial for me than not being on them. I think having a positive mindset and keeping busy and avoiding triggers has helped me too. I’ve decided to push back my surgery which may be stupid to some but it’s caused my depression to be so much stronger and until I’m done with counselling for my last surgery I don’t think I’d be able to have it done again without a whole lot of stress again (and all the physical symptoms that have came with it like reflux, headaches, delayed period and itchy skin).

I’m hoping to continue and see how it goes. I’ve got it on a repeat prescription now so I’m hoping the effects will be long term now. There is no shame in taking medication so if you’re struggling and feel like you may need it have a chat to your g.p.

Let’s talk Insomnia.

Let’s talk Insomnia.

For years now I’ve struggled to sleep when I have a bout of anxiety. I sit watching the clock tick by and wonder how what it feels like to sleep. Ten minutes will last I’ll think and look at the clock and it will be two hours.

I’ve tried not drinking all night so I don’t need the toilet, no cafffiene, no late night snacks. I’ve read to relax. I’ve left my phone down stairs. I’ve made my room both cold and hot. I’ve sprayed so much sleep spray I smell like it till I shower. I’ve tried over the counter tablets and I’m exhausted.

Going to sleep at 4 am every night just can’t do. I’m basically living of three hours of sleep every night before my toddler wakes up. I then have to give him my undivided attention. I have to look after him and clean the house. I have to push him in his buggy around and chase him when he runs off. I have to drink copious amounts of coffee now to try wake myself up which never works. In reality I have no idea why I can’t sleep. Maybe it’s because I worry I’ll die in my sleep or something else I’ve buried deep in my self consciousness. I suppose it’s easier now I don’t work as I didn’t sleep atall some nights and had to do a ten hour shift and two hours travelling absolutely exhausted. Some times I’d nod of on the bus to work and have to use everything in me to wake myself up and get tot work on time.

Does anyone have any recommendations to help this sleepy anxious mess out? It would be much appreciated and I’m ready to try anything. I can’t go on much longer not sleeping and there’s so many negative side effects to it and i would like to wake up refreshed in the morning. I imagine some spots would go, I’d have more energy, feel better in myself and may be able to loose weight easier. Any suggestions atall please comment or hit my mail box! Thanks guys!