This is a bit of a weird one because technically i am not really afraid of trains anymore! But i thought i should write a little something on it just in case it might help someone else.
Any how my fear all started after a member of my family died on a tube. Not in a normal way at all but in the 7/7 terrorist attacks. After then i got really funny about being on public transport especially trains and tubes. I wouldn’t even go on one for years. Eventually id go with my mum to London for day trips but i would feel like crying on them and was scared. I was to young to realise i was having panic attacks.
I think as the years went on the more i went the safer i felt but i would never go alone and relie on whoever was with me at the time to keep me safe and know where we going. It wasn’t until i was about 17 when i got on a train by myself for the first time. This was because the guy i was seeing lived a train journey away so i would have to get used to getting on a train alone sometimes. The first time i had a full on panic attack and cried at the platform. The thought of something happening or getting wrong train or something like that made me sick with worry. Luckily a train conductor calmed me down and walked me to my train. While on the train i was very anxious and unsettled the whole journey, the only thing that made me calm was watching outside the window and seeing the country side. When i got there i was relieved and felt proud. The ride home felt better and after time it felt better. I tried to keep using the train as much as i could to get over my fear and it worked. However trips to London still made me incredibly anxious and using a tube. Now however after using them so often i have started to feel calmer on them. I do feel anxious getting the correct tube and when it’s busy and stops but counting in my head to ten an closing my eyes has helped. I try to go weekdays too so it’s not so busy and avoid rush hour.
So my advice to you is to try and keep trying it as it will get better with time. To try to distract yourself with things like reading or looking our a window. To take someone with out who may be able to help you keep calm. To organise your time and day going, also look into journey, times and where to board.Ask for help if you need it.Practice breathing exercises when feeling stressed. Most of all remember you will be okay and its worth the journey!